Things are on the upswing here.

I got approved for unemployment so I got a $242 check. Sweet. And I have work at Six Flags on Saturday yay money.

Mike is going through the motions at Bank of America to get a job and has an interview with Hollywood Video for a store in Vallejo as a Manager. And he has to take a test with the census on Wednesday.

I may be (and by may be... it's all depending on how scheduling days off at Six Flags is cuz IDUNNO) shooting Leslie's brother's wedding! As usual I am excited but mostly NERVOUS.

School is proving to be awesome and stupid. My Intro to Soc professor is cool and FUCKING SMART but I can't understand him for the life of me. He's from Kenya so I can't get too engaged in the shit he's talking about because I'm trying to make sure I hear everything right. Darn. I love Critical Thinking but I AM THE WORST CRITICAL THINKER EVER so it is also hard. History can eat my ass for many reasons and Women and Social Change is lovely.

I miss my iCarly interweb life. :(

Mike still applies to so many jobs every day and still hasn't gotten a call. Not once.

What is unappealing about his resume? Is it the 4 years of management experience? Or the Bachelor's Degree? JUST CURIOUS WHICH ONE THAT IS.

It just fucking sucks. I think we have $3 or $4 and some change until... I dunno. I think I get paid today but I don't know and I'm too embarrassed to ask.

He's not even applying to crazy awesome "adult" jobs. He's applied to be a fucking pizza delivery boy.

The shitty part is he's really, really trying. So what else is there to do?

But you ask "Ashley! You live at his mom's and your parents are near for a bit of cash." You're right. We also need to help pay bills for her because she doesn't make that much either, and we have thousands of dollars in debt and cell phone bills and my parents are paying for a wedding in months so do I really want to ask for more?

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I love him though.

Sorry for the bitchfest, but fuck we need a break. Mike deserves one. Me? Nah.

I wish my life would come together.

I got that job at Six Flags. Pushing buttons and making the rides go, just as I did at Disneyland. Hardly any hours for only $8 (man it's been awhile since I made minimum wage) but hey it's a job. Mike still hasn't been getting called back for ANYTHING, not a THING and just got denied for unemployment.

It's just like... fuck, how can we get our lives together before the wedding at this rate?

I'm trying to be optimistic and stuff as I usually am but it's just been so shitty lately. With life stuff, just Mike and I together separate from real life bullshit? Awesome as always.

EXPECT SAVE THE DATES IF YOU ARE INVITED TO MY WEDDING IF NOT I AM SORRY THIS IS AWKWARD.